Thursday, July 11, 2013

FSF: Stop The Cycle

Five Sentence Fiction ~ Locked




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Finally, after 15 years of putting her self back together and making it to the other side of the horror that had been her life, she was ready for the clean up: neurofeedback to help her mind calm down, hopefully abate even more PTSD symtoms, and rid herself of what she viewed as the toxic waste left over in her mind from the years of healing.

This was her second appointment; her first had been the initial consultation and she was now ready to have the initial baseline reading of her brain. Reviewing the first numbers and graphs, the doctor indicated that it showed her mind, in it's normal daily activity state, was anything but normal, and described her brain as working very hard to suppress something..."whatever" was locked inside her mind.

This second doctor had not been aware of her 44 years of amnesia and 15 years of getting to where the memories seemed to be controlled; and now, MacKenzie realized she was not yet done since it was likely some new or repeating memories would surface in treatment although the next time, with the neurofeedback, would finally release the trauma from cycling in her mind.

This was her final attempt to become as normal as possible for what remained of her life; after all she deserved at least a decade of normalcy and what others knew as happiness for her time left on this earth.


8 comments:

  1. I am aghast with the events in her mind, time seem to be another added punishment!

    May she find the possibility to be a normal being again!

    Your tale is upsetting enough! I loved it!

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    1. Thanks for being the first to read and comment, Liam. I wondered what reaction I'd get. This group definitely likes heavy duty drama.

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  2. This is a very painful story. Our past definitely stays with us.

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  3. One has to wonder what truly are the deepest secrets buried here.
    Scott
    Mine: http://kindredspirit23.wordpress.com/2013/07/12/five-sentence-fiction-fsf-locked-pg13/

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  4. it must be some trauma she suffered to lock away like that . . such a painful story but also showing true courage. xx

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  5. Great use of the prompt. Your writing portrays MacKenzie's trepidation really well.

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  6. I wonder why so many lock up their past? What torment and fear she must experience.

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    1. I'm living proof that some don't know they have a hidden past until middle age. Then it comes leaking out like a life we never knew we lived. Amnesia from childhood trauma. It's a natural childhood coping mechanism. The brain does it. No choice involved. 3-4 decades later, wham! I don't wish it on anyone except those who took advantage of it :X Thank you for reading and commenting, Patricia.

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