Falling Into Me

Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Haiku Heights #263 ~ Measure

a measure of love
cements the bond between us
wrapped in our friendship

Carpe Diem #243 ~ Companions

my life companion

the last love of my known life

best friends forever

***

companions in life

though no conscious memory

knowing that we loved

***

a new world ~ internet

my virtual companions

my love for them real

At The Merge: Week 28

We were provided two prompts for this week's writing of up to 500 words. I chose this image because it reflected mind control or a broken person to me.

You can read the first segment of this story here:

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In the Cold War, no one questioned what the US government was doing to keep us safe from the always heightened fear of Soviet nuclear proliferation. Under the umbrella MK-Ultra, the ultimate in harm was done to college students, prison inmates, our own soldiers, and beyond in the name of finding the “right” resources to use against our enemies. LSD used on unsuspecting people was introduced by the CIA underground to observe its ability to produce mental malleable individuals to no avail. Psychiatrists in nearly every major university in the country was lured into the program (which went completely against the Hippocratic Oath) to administer various drugs and try unethical hypnosis to see how far a person could be made to go beyond the bounds of that individual’s ethics. It was proven that hypnosis could reach a level causing a person to commit acts without memory of doing so.

While MK-Ultra had just under 150 subprojects, other projects and programs of an even deeper level existed. The intent was to begin with a newborn or young child whose mind was still capable of fragmenting as a coping mechanism which usually only happened before a child was six years old. To create this effect, a child had to be consistently subjected to physical, sexual, and/or emotional abuse to include the extremes of witnessing harm to others and torture including sensory deprivation and drugs to quell resistance. The “formula” for beginning with a newborn was not completely in place until after the birth of Elias’ first child. He did his part to instill the fear and maintain the prescribed methods of abuse at the time, all designed not to be evident to the spouse.

When his first child was only two years old, the family transferred from Japan to Aberdeen Proving Grounds in Maryland. The Proving Grounds and its neighbor Edgewood Arsenal were the places of some of the CIA and Army Psychological Warfare Division's deepest secrets. It was here Elias met his personal trainers, hand selected Nazis under Project Paperclip, another secret government program which ushered Nazis criminals into the US for their knowledge of rocket science, mind control, and other specialties post WWII.

The entirety of the mind control program was under the direct supervision of Jack Leber, head of the CIA’s Technical Services Division. The notorious Nazis, whose whereabouts were kept well guarded and/or covered with revisionist history and propaganda, were under Leber’s direction to train the “special” sociopathic officers recruited into the program. Everything was laid out with precision. If the children of the program lived to be adults fulfilling their carefully engineered purpose somehow remembered and told the truth, they would never be believed.
Words: 447

Monday, July 8, 2013

Blind Obedience (to date)

Segment One

The Games Begin

Elias knew he wanted to kill from an early age. Even when his parents saw they could no longer have pets, he found animals to torture in secret. It was with great pleasure he signed the contract that turned his life over to the military. Extraordinary timing. The war had ended not long before and the CIA just came into its own after having been the Office of Strategic Services. British MI-6 officers had aided in the transition. The year was 1947.

Psychiatrists had devised a questionnaire (unbeknown to Elias) to target sociopaths with a predisposition to pedophilia. He had passed with flying colors and, even though he was not a college graduate, somehow he had been drafted into officer training school under the auspices of the new CIA for a secret program. He got his license to kill just prior to his first assignment, Korea, before his 20th birthday.

Part of his cover would be a wife, especially since children were to be the basis of the program for which he would owe allegiance. Elias had the task of finding a bride who was already prone to dissociation or highly hypnotizable. He chose a girl from his high school class and married after his training. He would not reunite with her until after his first tour of duty for a year in Korea instructing Korean soldiers how to torture and kill. How he thrived on torture. His wife joined him at his next assignment in Japan. He became involved in Japanese political affairs where it was to US advantage for one side to win. Japan was also where his first child was born. He had complied by conditioning his wife to obey orders and sometimes hypnotize her to forget things she had seen or heard. That was crucial to his life in the underworld as a spy sanctioned by the secret level of the government. To his wife, time would just fly by when her baby daughter was taken for nefarious purposes. Her mind simply closed the time gaps. To her, he was in the Army. Period.

In the beginning of the Cold War, US military was highly interested in mind control, especially having soldiers follow orders without question or memory. And so the behavioral engineering experiments began, and not just on the soldiers. The program known as MK-ULTRA was underway.

The above was posted as a challenge to Trifecta on July 8, 2013 at 333 words.

Segment Two

The Program

In the Cold War, no one questioned what the US government was doing to keep us safe from the always heightened fear of Soviet nuclear proliferation. Under the umbrella MK-Ultra, the ultimate in harm was done to college students, prison inmates, our own soldiers, and beyond in the name of finding the “right” resources to use against our enemies. LSD used on unsuspecting people was introduced by the CIA underground to observe its ability to produce mental malleable individuals to no avail.

Psychiatrists in nearly every major university in the country was lured into the program (which went completely against the Hippocratic Oath) to administer various drugs and try unethical hypnosis to see how far a person could be made to go beyond the bounds of that individual’s ethics. It was proven that hypnosis could reach a level causing a person to commit acts without memory of doing so.

While MK-Ultra had just under 150 subprojects, other projects and programs of an even deeper level existed. The intent was to begin with a newborn or young child whose mind was still capable of fragmenting as a coping mechanism which usually only happened before a child was six years old. To create this effect, a child had to be consistently subjected to physical, sexual, and/or emotional abuse to include the extremes of witnessing harm to others and torture including sensory deprivation and drugs to quell resistance. The “formula” for beginning with a newborn was not completely in place until after the birth of Elias’ first child. He did his part to instill the fear and maintain the prescribed methods of abuse at the time, all designed not to be evident to the spouse.

When his first child was only two years old, the family transferred from Japan to Aberdeen Proving Grounds in Maryland. The Proving Grounds and its neighbor Edgewood Arsenal were the places of some of the CIA and Army Psychological Warfare Division's deepest secrets. It was here Elias met his personal trainers, hand selected Nazis under Operation Paperclip, another secret government program which ushered Nazis criminals into the US for their knowledge of rocket science, mind control, and other specialties post WWII.

The entirety of the mind control program was under the direct supervision of Jack Leber, head of the CIA’s Technical Services Division. The notorious Nazis, whose whereabouts were kept well guarded and/or covered with revisionist history and propaganda, were under Leber’s direction to train the “special” sociopathic officers recruited into the program. Everything was laid out with precision. If the children of the program lived to be adults fulfilling their carefully engineered purpose somehow remembered and told the truth, they would never be believed.

This segment was posted for the prompt of Writing At The Merge Week 28.

Segment 3

Training

Elias was in awe meeting the most reviled Nazi of all time, Josef Mengele with his narcissistic confidence and black boots remembered by many long after the concentration camps; Reinhard Gehlen, who was allied by the CIA for his many contacts with the Soviet Union and his knowledge of what was needed to stay ahead of Soviet advancements in mind control; and Jose Delgado, a man with no loyalties but whose knowledge of brain stimulation and manipulating both animals and children to perform as puppets rather than entities with their mind. All were integral to training those whose children would become the first babies born into the program.

Training for Elias’ role for his own child began before its conception. He had no problem signing the documents, although he hated the clause stating his own flesh and blood child would be swapped at birth with a child genetically engineered for the program. He winced at knowing he might have a son he would never know. To ensure his loyalty to Firefly (the highly secretive program of targeting genetically engineered newborns), the CIA made it known they had proof of Elias’ history as a pedophile—knowledge that would ruin his life and career. His job in the larger scheme of the program was to teach the art of torture to create multiple personalities in the young minds, beginning pre-birth.

Aberdeen Proving Grounds was a common layover point for Nazis entering the US under Operation Paperclip before being given a permanent assignment. Elias trained in 1951 and was prepared for his newborn in late 1952. He was also able to incorporate the new techniques that did not apply to newborns to his now nearly three-year-old child.

The genetically engineered baby was the egg of the biological mother and the sperm of a highly secretive royalty sperm bank. It was long held in the occult that certain bloodlines were meant to be preserved and children hidden from the royal donors would ensure the succession. In fact many donors were also raised in the occult creating childhood multiplicity and became unwitting sperm donors as teens fathering numerous unknown children. The Nazis were forced to worship Satan and participate in the rituals. That knowledge became part and parcel of Firefly. The same people responsible for creating the sophisticated personality structure of each child were also the people at the terrifying ceremonies where the ultimate traumas were perpetrated on the children.

It had been identified before the program that messages a child or adult heard at the height of terror were retained far more quickly than any other method. It was the means to an end but also the fulfillment of an insatiable desire by pedophiles and sociopaths who cared more about their country’s goals and personal perversions than their own children’s welfare.

As for the biological mother, all unwitting wives would never have memory of the medical procedure to extract the eggs.

This segment was posted for Write At The Merge Week 28.

Segment 4

The Bloodlines

While anyone looking at the country’s Cold War would see the US versus the Soviet Union, far beneath, in the layer of Firefly, existed a drastically different agenda. The Federal Reserve, which began in the 1920s, and the World Bank which began in 1944, held the foresight of the wealthiest of the wealthy (tying back to royal bloodlines) dominating the world, known in whispered circles as The New World Order. Part of that Orwellian state included not only mind control of their subjects but cooperation of the world’s wealthiest including the upper class in the Soviet Union. At that deep hidden level, for many decades, the worldwide elite manipulated public perception of their activities while steadily moving forward. Priority one was to save themselves from their own man made evil, which was part and parcel of the greater doctrine.

Both Russia and the US had secret plans to send an entourage to space to colonize the moon in the event of imminent nuclear annihilation. Wernher von Braun, an Operation Paperclip Nazi, was first placed with the US Army working on missiles and worked his way up to director of NASA. All puzzle pieces were fitting nicely into place—mainstreamed criminal Nazi’s fully embraced by the US thanks to propaganda.

Elias seethed at knowing he was training others to create the genetically engineered offspring to be the new mind controlled generation who would colonize space with a select few leaders and scientists. His “daughter”, one of the “chosen”, would potentially survive a nuclear holocaust while he perished. It made him hate her even more. He did his job well of maintaining her fear and terrorizing her subconsciously to keep her personalities in tact. He despised that he had to be mindful of never allowing his thin veneer of restraint to crack. His assigned asset was crucial to the program and ending her life would end his career and possibly his life as well.

Written for Trifecta's Week Eighty-Six.

Segment 5

Hidden Assets

Polyvore by grace2244

Each personality created for a child had been trained for a specific job either for the cult scenarios, or highly specialized knowledge to be a young astronaut, assassin, courier and numerous other government-designated purposes. Elias was not one of the respected neuroscientists who knew the brain and how to program the various entities of a young mind. Jack Leber had carefully laid out the personality matrices for different undercover purposes.

Because Emma, his royalty-hidden “daughter”, was to be a much needed part of that world, Elias greatly resented her higher purpose and the fact that he was relegated to a necessary but not well regarded member of the secret operatives. His skills in torture were prized and chronicled as part of the darkest secret—the manual used worldwide to create the next generation of blindly obedient children into adulthood who could be used on cue for any activity for which they were trained with no memory of having done so. Yet his covert task did not allow him to band with the others in terms of importance.

Even at a young age, the children had purposes that far exceeded their original purpose. One could make a young child swallow gems and call out a loving part who believed the abuser to be a father figure and easily transport the cache to another state or country. Drugs could be hidden in children’s toys with no one thinking twice. The child returning home had no memory of the event and the spouse and siblings would have all been trained to forget any missing time. All seemed normal to each other within the family system, except that it was a complete fabrication.

Written for Trifecta Week Eighty Eight.

Segment 6

Womb To Let

Polyvore by Grace2244

The training manual to raise a generation of “designer operatives” complete, Elias impregnated his wife. As soon as it was known she was pregnant, the fertilized egg that would be his child was inseminated into the surrogate. The underground had its own supply of “slaves”: children, teens, adults who were not missed by society. They were gathered from orphanages in places of war or where an agreement was made for financial gain, from prisons, the terminally ill, street children, the homeless, those born into cults whose births were never registered.
The healthy women were kept to be bred and used as surrogates. They were property of the governments who held them. The ones not suitable for other purposes were used to traumatize those who were multiple or becoming multiple.

Witnessing the horrific torture and deaths of such people became seared into the young minds. At the moment of peak terror, the programming messages and signals for the purpose of the particular personality called out for the trauma would begin. Trauma, ritual abuse, and scientific precision along with training went hand in hand. One did not work without the other. Horrific trauma was essential to a well engineered multiple.

While other mind control programs were proving fruitless, nothing was weak about the plan to develop the children of Firefly to be unwitting and perfectly mind controlled adults.

Written for Trifecta: Week Eighty Nine

Trifecta: Blind Obedience (1)

Trifecta: Week Eighty-Five

This week's challenge is to write 33 to 333 words using the following definition of the word FLY: a ) to move, pass, or spread quickly ; b) to be moved with sudden extreme emotion ; c) to seem to pass quickly .

My entry is the beginning of possibly a novel with fact and fiction mixed together. Some names are real while others are not because of the need to fictionalize details. The program MK-ULTRA was indeed real.

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Elias knew he wanted to kill from an early age. Even when his parents saw they could no longer have pets, he found animals to torture in secret. It was with great pleasure he signed the contract that turned his life over to the military. Extraordinary timing. The war had ended not long before and the CIA just came into its own after having been the Office of Strategic Services. British MI-6 officers had aided in the transition.

Psychiatrists had devised a questionnaire (unbeknown to Elias) to target sociopaths. He had passed with flying colors and, even though he was not a college graduate, somehow he had been drafted into officer training school under the auspices of the new CIA for a secret program. He got his license to kill just prior to his first assignment, Korea, before his 20th birthday.

According to plan, he married before his departure. He would not reunite with his bride until after his tour of duty for a year in Korea instructing Korean soldiers how to torture and kill. How he thrived on torture. His wife joined him at his next assignment in Japan. Once again he became involved in Japanese civil affairs where it was to US advantage for one side to win. Japan was also where his first child was born. He had already been trained to condition his wife to obey orders and sometimes hypnotize her to forget things she had seen or heard. That was crucial to his life in the underworld as a spy sanctioned by the secret level of the government. To his wife, time would just fly by when her baby daughter was taken for nefarious purposes. Her mind simply closed the time gaps.

In the beginning of the Cold War, US military was highly interested in mind control, especially having soldiers follow orders without question or memory. And so the behavioral engineering experiments began, and not just on the soldiers. The program known as MK-ULTRA was underway.

Words: 333

Part 2 of this story can be found here.

CD: Whose Ambition?

Carpe Diem #242 ~ Ambition

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life's ambition

destiny defined by path

obstacles and turns

***

life as a puppet

whose ambition did i live?

no one can believe

***

letting go of truth

the ambition to tell all

must now be at peace

These prompt words are going deep into my psyche. Even when I want to not connect to past, it's where my mind takes me.

Sunday, July 7, 2013

OSI: Demons

One Single Impression ~ Demon

demons within
you placed them in my mind
i thought they were gone
until you died
your evil lived on
you lost
i survived my attempt
and now have healed
your evil now powerless
hell has been waiting
for you and your ilk

CD: No Country For Lost Souls

Carpe Diem #241 ~ Sacrifice

This prompt is painful for me and the result is sarcastic haiku. I hope it still works. Not meant to undermine anyone's service to their country with free will...knowing consent.

sacrifice your life

protect and serve your country

honors come posthumously

***

some sacrifices

not made of our will freely

for "god" and country

Wordle: The Nineteen

The Sunday Whirl
Wordle #116

where there's smoke, there's fire

what happens when the ordinary

take on the impossible

risking their lives

to save others

make the climb, take the plunge

the scared flee their homes

clinging to words of the play-by-play

of the media

pressure builds as fire nears

no orders to flee

the ordinary become extraordinary

through actions and deeds

fate is not kind

the might of flame and wind

extinguish lives

listen to the voices in the wind

they are one with the fire

one with the elements

and delivered to heaven

our prayers barraging them

the nineteen

Although the poem is focused on the heroic nineteen firefighters, prayers go out to all impacted by the destruction of the blaze in Arizona.

Saturday, July 6, 2013

CD: Ode to Joy

Carpe Diem #240 ~ Joy

joy ~ a foreign word
italy taught me to feel
beyond a mere smile

***

ode to joy
what does it mean though?
feel it first

***

drugs numbed my sad mind
with joy in my heart at last
time to stop the meds

dVerse: Puzzle of Me

dVerse: Poetics ~ PuZZled

I fell apart
into pieces
Sybil
parts of me
like puzzle pieces
from a box
with no image
of what the whole
was to be

Two by two
sometimes more
healed and became me
decades of puzzled me
finally whole
Here I am
looking in the mirror
wondering
if I'm together right

CD: Curiouser and Curiouser

Carpe Diem #239 ~ Curiosity

curiosity

alice down the rabbit hole

only eight lives left

***

curious in life

new knowledge to view the world

perspective changes

***

where do stars come from?

children need easy answers

the sun gives them life

Friday, July 5, 2013

CD: Basho's famous 'The Old Pond"

Carpe Diem's Tan Renga Challenge #5

Matsuo Basho's famous haiku:

the old pond
a frog jumps in -
the sound of water

I am to add two lines of seven syllables each to this haiku.
Here is my attempt:

a breeze carries water sprayed

nearby lily pad is cooled

HH: In The Breeze

Haiku Heights #262 ~ Sand

sand within my palm
watching it drift in the breeze
as his ashes did

HMH: Souls Entwined

Haiku My Heart

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souls entwined

belong to the night

lovers sigh

FSF: Fight or Flight

Five Sentence Fiction ~ Flight

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Fight or Flight. Her preferred method was flight. Run as fast and as far as you can. Sometimes...okay mostly...flight was "on the wings of angels" literally. Surely death had to be easier than life.

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Toads: Free Verse Travelogue

Imaginary Garden With Real Toads
Words Count ~ Vacation

Photo by Grace Beam, Cinque Terre, Italy

first we had Italy

poppies, Tuscany,

wisteria, espresso

trains, and young love

seven years later

honeymoon in France

Provence sans lavender

heavenly gelato,

chocolate croissants

what will be next?

you say perhaps Greece

or Barcelona sounds nice

back to Italy or France

any will do

just let me know

and my dreams will take hold

CD: Of Love & Moon

Carpe Diem #238 ~ Affection

I was so taken with Kristjaan's writing of the moon, I wanted to write of that love as well. The photo is not the best of the super moon but my husband took it for me to use in my Polyvore art.