Easing my way back into writing with mindfulness, introspection, and writing challenges.
Tuesday, December 24, 2013
Christmas Eve 2013
home alone by choice to allow sadness and vulnerability to surface as it must realize it is the first time i have been feeling good until last night when the trauma-related feelings hit but the sadness is not consuming me
it is not me down in the pit it is me realizing the sadness is another emotion and it doesn't need to be alone it has support from stronger feelings it doesn't own me any longer
the guilt of staying home seems odd since great sadness, especially tonight, usually had me feeling nothing else except anxiety now i can hold all emotions and just notice, acknowledge let them co-exist likely what most know as normal