dVerse: Question of Identity
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| Polyvore by grace2244 |
i thought i knew who i was
who i loved
what i wanted
but then it all changed
my life in a moment
stripped me of any knowledge
or identity previously known
only be getting unstuck
from the muck of stolen memory
did i come to know of me
and the multiplicity of me
coming out of the tarpit
i found a new life
a new love
a new way of being
the second blow of
body falling apart
took back my life's new direction
but my love stayed
he is now my husband
what remains are my remnants
of trauma
that threaten my existence
more than i care to admit
what holds me together
is my life with my husband
and our dog
and our dreams
but first must get past
current barrage of parts of me
hellbent on death
waiting waiting for help
to keep me alive
i am glad that through it all he has stood by you,
ReplyDeleteit has to be hard for both of you as you walk through this....
and smiling at your acknowledgement of how important
that relationship is to you as well.
The love of a good spouse and a good dog can heal quite a lot. Liked this very much.
ReplyDeleteI love that you have the support.. And yes your dog who I guess is not a puppy any longer.
ReplyDeleteI think your poem speaks to courage and love, and hope - these are all good things.
ReplyDeletewhat holds me together
ReplyDeleteis my life with my husband
and our dog
and our dreams
beautiful!!!!
No doubt there will be remnants of the trauma for a long time, but you are well on your way now and are learning the healthy self talk you need to do...along with your new family ;)
ReplyDeleteIt sounds like a devastating experience and thank you for being so open about it. I'm glad you've found comfort and support through these difficult times, and rebuilding yourself after all the remnants of trauma.
ReplyDeleteI agree with Bjorn. With a good spouse and a devoted dog, the heart will heal. This is a poem of transcending trauma and moving out into the sunshine you so deserve. Blessings.
ReplyDeleteYou seem to be moving out of the darkness of your ordeal thanks to the strong support of your husband and your loyal pet. What courage you have sharing this with us. May God bless you as you continue to heal.
ReplyDeletehey you...bjorn just dropped me a line to let me know you are back around...
ReplyDeletewhich is good news...and i hope that this finds you having a great day...smiles.