at my birth there was no Google
propaganda made my life a myth
but, now, declassified
the public can know
Senate Hearings in 1972
exposed the secret program of the CIA
yet no one heard or wanted to hear
I am a child of the horror that was that program
intentional amnesia created
the mind's natural response to overwhelming trauma
they knew and they used that knowledge
only constant horror causes the mind to fragment
in mid-40s my amnesia broke
my life fell apart
decades of therapy
even before "knowing" was seeking help
my life is still mostly mystery
and mostly no one believes
intentional propaganda arises
each time a new truth is released
the public doesn't know fact from fiction
myth from conspiracy
my feeling compelled to let the truth be known
has fallen on deaf ears
and so I let go
to focus simply on healing
to have a good rest of my life
I am a child of the cold war
my birth planned to be part of a secret project
evil incarnate
handed over to Nazis of Operation Paperclip
with permission of the person who was "my father"
and now, having written my truth,
may it rest in peace
and may the world
at some point
open their minds to what our government
still does to children trapped in the programs