Yes, I did find a way to do that. In a healing ceremony in Sedona, I released all that was negative within me...to include negative energy I held for not forgiving the abusers. I learned to forgive myself long before having to make a decision about "them". Always such a personal decision for healing.
I've worked through all the emotions, Brian. To choose to forgive is different to me. No one deserves forgiveness for intentional harm to an innocent. But I do get to heal from what was done. Guess it depends on the definition one has of forgiveness. When my father died in 2011, within a month programming for me to commit suicide went off. I failed. It wasn't me taking the pills. That's the kind of evil still going on until I integrated. Not ever completely sure certain circumstances won't set off another internal sequence of events while integrated. It's just how I live. But I healed to integration without forgiving. Such an intense topic. Whew.
Forgiving heals the forgiver more often than the forgiven!, don't you think?
ReplyDeleteYes, I did find a way to do that. In a healing ceremony in Sedona, I released all that was negative within me...to include negative energy I held for not forgiving the abusers. I learned to forgive myself long before having to make a decision about "them". Always such a personal decision for healing.
Deletecan we ever really heal if we still hold onto the feelings?
ReplyDeleteI've worked through all the emotions, Brian. To choose to forgive is different to me. No one deserves forgiveness for intentional harm to an innocent. But I do get to heal from what was done. Guess it depends on the definition one has of forgiveness. When my father died in 2011, within a month programming for me to commit suicide went off. I failed. It wasn't me taking the pills. That's the kind of evil still going on until I integrated. Not ever completely sure certain circumstances won't set off another internal sequence of events while integrated. It's just how I live. But I healed to integration without forgiving. Such an intense topic. Whew.
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Siggi
Very spiritual and emotional response on forgiveness Maggie ...
ReplyDeleteSuch an enlightened haiku ~ 'right on' Maggie ~ thanks, carol, xx
ReplyDeleteThank you for being able to express in words so clearly your beliefs on forgiveness.
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Siggi
Some things should not be forgiven.. I agree. Forgiveness should always be based on free will and never asked for or accepted easily.
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